getting deep

et's just be honest for a second. cuz this morning was more of a confirmation for me...and it was awesome. Thank God for people that understand what letting go in its fullness means...i mean I Deff don't fully yet. but this woman this morning did. and I was glad because it reminded me that the few decisions thought to be crazy or retarded or selfish by others, were really decisions that HAD to be made, and it reminded me that I heard ohh I heard correctly. 
Anyway, so I'm not a genius at Love and whatever, deff didn't even want or dream of marriage before 2005...even less kids. But that has changed over the years. seeing healthy relationships and marriages around me has deff played a huge role in planting this desire in my heart. Now, 2wice I've heard deep down that I needed to walk away from 2 relationships that were in essence...pretty good on the right track, but deep down started to get the feeling that it was time. oh the hurt...mostly because once u have to end something usually the other person...(if they don't get it) will completly drop out of ur life, and the thought of hurting someone- ur bestfriend- it will hurt- and u cant help it.... Dayum, all of a sudden ur best friend...there goes...gone poof...sorry girl, if ur not my GF...I can't be ur friend...hmm anyway- maybe that's the way stuff has to go. and though it sux...stick to the word that u hear deep down inside. Cuz no matter how good someone may seem for u, there may be ...just maybe...the planned one for u. No drama here, but we must understand that tho sometimes things we MUST do don't make sense...but they will...and we will in the end turn around and Thank God for the little suffering for the big reward.. :)... No one else will know as well what is deep down in ur heart...as u will...what u are hearing. but if u are hearing it...listen!! quick....there is more and more to be done...act on it. Don't question, don't give away ur peace for something u know isn't for u. Let it fly. Hope and pray the best for him or her.yes.. and Let go. Cry out. Raise ur hands...releasing of the spirit 

rather be free and at peace in the palm of ur hands- then in my own- owning my land- not giving my all for your best- for you who gave it all for me- YOU who gave it ALL for me, Why wouldnt I, how couldnt I, to not would be the rejection of allowing you your will- and ur purpose. Have your way-